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I have been in 3 domestic violence relationships. Once as a teen and then twice in my adulthood. I now leave any guy that even makes strong suggestions. (Don't tell me what to do dammit!) I no longer get beat everyday or even have an argument where I am emotionally attacked daily. I don't get strangled everyday anymore and I don't have to sleep with a lunatic that sleeps with his arms and legs around me so that I can't move. I am allowed to go to the bathroom by myself, hold my own wallet and talk whenever I want to. It is a wonderful feeling.Today I have gotten an apology of sorts from 2 and I accept for the most part but the last guy was too vicious and malicious. I really do wish that I had assisted him in taking his own life back then instead of trying to kill myself. I don't know where he is and I've been told by the battered women society and the church that I have to forgive in order to heal but I tell ya what. "No". He is NOT FORGIVEN! He is lucky that I graciously keep my much bigger older brothers at bay because I wont have them spend a day in jail over a piece of street trash like him.Unfortunately my left cheek bone still sticks out farther than the right from being hit so much in the face. I can no longer have children because of these men. You are still young and you have a chance to get away and start over. Seize your moment. Get into a battered women's shelter and everything will be fine. They will help you with everything and equip you with tools to help with future relationships. You have to give up the Job. You have to disappear for a little while. They will take care of you at the shelter and help you to transition back into society. Remember you are worth it and when you look back you wont even believe this happened to you.NATIONAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE HOTLINE:1-800-799-SAFE1-800-799-7233 |
